Friday, May 30, 2008


Lost and Found

Last night as my honey and I were watching the season finale of Lost, there was a scene that really struck me, and I had one of those famous 'aha' moments that Oprah's always talking about. I love those 'aha' moments, don't you?

Here was the scene: six passengers were aboard a helicopter on the way to the rescue boat, but a hole in the fuel tank caused by a bullet from a previous gun fight caused the copter to loose fuel, and thus the pilot told everyone to throw all heavy objects into the ocean so they would have enough fuel to make it to the boat. However, even after tossing lots of stuff, the pilot said the coptor was still about two hundred pounds overweight, and they had another five minutes to reach the boat. The fuel tank was leaking fast. What to do?

This is when Sawyer (the bad ass rascal of the group) suddenly puts one last big smacker on Kate, whispers something in her ear, and jumps from the copter to the ocean--his heroic act to save the group. He begins swimming back to the island from which the group had finally escaped.

This was Sawyer's redemption for he had always been self-serving.

My 'aha' moment in regards to this scene:

I've been LETTING-GO of STUFF--physical items--for many long months. As I've moved deeper into this process, I've noticed that not only is our home becoming more spacious and expansive, so am I. Beliefs, habits, thoughts, emotions, and attachments are no longer relevant. I'm not my body, my mind, my emotions, my nationality, my skin color, my religion, my stuff--I'm a limitless me. In keeping myself so busy taking care of business and 'doing' life and managing stuff, I forgot to experience life as the divine spark I truly am.

In tying up the loose ends and taking care of unfinished business, I've made room for the awareness of the infinite God Force within.

Once this awareness is re-ignited, jumping is easy.

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Sunday, May 25, 2008


Who Is That Masked Man?

Sorting through and organizing old photos is a very melancholy process for me, but luckily for me, once a week I've recruited my willing daughter to aid me with this HUGE project--one which will eventually result in digital and physical scrapbooks with different subject matters.

When she's helping me, we laugh uproariously over many of the crazy photos. We critique our different hairstyles through the years. We wonder what ever happened to so and so. We marvel at how some people have grown better looking through the years while others haven't. We grieve over the loss of many dear ones. We wish we STILL had every pet we've ever been blessed to spend time with. We talk story about the memories that arise from these photos. We are reminded how fast the years have sped by and how many different beings we've been. Was that really US who did that and looked that way?

With her helping me, I only tiptoe a mite into a dreadful melancholy space.

It's been intense dealing with the thousands of photos I've taken and collected through the years. And I'm really just two steps into the beginning of the project with four more steps to go before completion so who knows how long it's gonna take me/us to finish this.

One of the Mother's Day gifts from my daughter was a scrapbook set, and I've always wanted to scrapbook, so here we go! There's a fabulous scrap booking shop on Maui too, so if we need extra goodies, we'll have a shop to plunder. Plus I discovered a digital scrap book site online --"a fun site dedicated to digital scrapbooking freebies that you can really use. We add new high quality freebies frequently - generally at least 1 - 3 times per month."

The above photo is of my S.O. in one of his many crazy Halloween get-ups, all of which I purchased for him and forced him to wear. How patient he's been with me! And how grateful he'll be when he reads this post and see I didn't post some of his WAY OVER THE TOP costumes! :Smile:

I really do have lots of blackmail material in my collection, but that's not my style.


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Thursday, May 22, 2008


A Pot of Gold

Recently friends from Ohio visited us, and they just couldn't stop talking about the high prices on Maui. They were especially shocked about the cost of food.

The price of food on Maui is high alright, but if you're lucky enough to have great friends such a we do, you can get by.

For example, this is what we were given this week by a beloved friend: organic lemons! If you were to go to the store to purchase one lemon, you're talking around a dollar or more.

Talk about a Pot of Gold!

And to top off this great gift, he also gave us a wee lemon tree. Isn't it cute?
With the cost of gas on Maui moving to the $5 range and other prices of goods moving up as well, it's good to be self-sufficient to some degree... and have friends.

Bartering may soon be commonplace.

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Monday, May 19, 2008


Seasons End, But Chicken Jokes Live On

Most of my favorite tv shows are having their season endings about this time. Last night we watched the two hour season finale for Desperate Housewives, a show which has brilliant writing, editing, and carefully crafted plots.

But it was horrifying to see what happens to Gabrielle in 5 years! Say this is a bad dream writers and producers of Desperate Housewives!

And yes, it's still a little voggy here on Maui which is making everyone suffer to one degree or another. Oh, for the tradewinds to blow again!

My day has been lightened by an email sent from a friend: chicken jokes.

Why Did The Chicken Cross The Road?

BARACK OBAMA: The chicken crossed the road because it
was time for a CHANGE! The chicken wanted CHANGE!

JOHN MC CAIN: My friends, that chicken crossed the road
because he recognized the need to engage in cooperation
and dialogue with all the chickens on the other side of the road.

HILLARY CLINTON: When I was First Lady, I personally
helped that little chicken to cross the road. This
experience makes me uniquely qualified to ensure -- right
from Day One! -- that every chicken in this country gets
the chance it deserves to cross the road. But then, this
really isn't about me.......

GEORGE W. BUSH: We don't really care why the chicken
crossed the road. We just want to know if the chicken is on
our side of the road or not. The chicken is either against
us or for us. There is no middle ground here.

COLIN POWELL: Now to the left of the screen, you can
clearly see the satellite image of the chicken crossing
the road...

ANDERSON COOPER - CNN: We have reason to believe there
is a chicken, but we have not yet been allowed to have
access to the other side of the road.

JOHN KERRY: Although I voted to let the chicken cross
the road, I am now against it! It was the wrong road to
cross, and I was misled about the chicken's
intentions. I am not for it now, and will remain against

NANCY GRACE: That chicken crossed the road because
he's GUILTY! You can see it in his eyes and the way
he walks.

PAT BUCHANAN: To steal the job of a decent, hardworking

DR SEUSS: Did the chicken cross the road? Did he cross
it with a toad? Yes, the chicken crossed the road, but why
it crossed I've not been told.

ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die in the rain. Alone.

JERRY FALWELL: Because the chicken was gay! Can't
you people see the plain truth? That's why they call
it the 'other side.' Yes, my friends that chicken
is gay. And if you eat that chicken, you will become gay,
too. I say we boycott all chickens until we sort out this
abomination that the liberal media white washes with
seemingly harmless phrases like 'the other side.'
That chicken should not be crossing the road. It's as
plain and as simple as that.

ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross the

JOHN LENNON: Imagine all the chickens in the world
crossing roads together, in peace.

ALBERT EINSTEIN: Did the chicken really cross the road
or did the road move beneath the chicken?

BILL CLINTON: I did not cross the road with THAT
chicken!...... What is your definition of chicken?

AL GORE: I invented the chicken!

COLONEL SANDERS: Did I miss one?

DICK CHENEY: Where's my gun?

AL SHARPTON: Why are all the chickens white?...... We
need some black chickens!

What are your favorites?

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Friday, May 16, 2008


Letting Go And Vog

You see the photo above of this tall, ugly big brown thing? This is my giant file cabinet in our office, and it has been my project over the last week to weed and the main reason why I haven't been blogging much. To tell you that going through this stuffed file cabinet was daunting, challenging, difficult, scarifying, and time-consuming would be phrasing it mildly.

There was way too much paperwork in this file cabinet which is now totally irrelevant and well past-it's expiration date! Forcing myself to go through it has been an agonizing trip down memory lane!

Who was I?

Industrious, idealistic, curious, dreamy, and hungry for knowledge. It seems like another person printed all these pages out, wrote these things, dreamed this and that. I've changed!!

Inside this file cabinet was another me, another time, another world.

And the 'important papers' with pages which I underlined with exclamation marks and made notes and diligently filed in categories are so NOT ME.

Today is an extremely voggy day on Maui--one of the very worst I've seen. The sky is gray, and there are no trade winds--a day that's perfect to reflect on the past and let go.

And indeed I have because I filled so many garbage bags full of the old today that our huge trashcan which gets picked up twice a week is nearly full once again!

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Sunday, May 11, 2008


On Motherhood

The VERY best thing that ever happened to me was becoming a Mother! And today is the day when my family celebrates me as Mother because it's Mother's Day, and I celebrate all the other Mothers of the world. We deserve our celebration as we are the backbone of society.

Few of us were well prepared to be a Mother. Most of us simply learned 'on the job'--sometimes making mistakes. I had a bit of an education in that I babysat young babies during my teenage years, and so I knew the basics. But that was about it--the basics!

Let me tell you, I've earned every one of my white hairs! And I'm proud of them even if I choose to cover them up. :Smile:

My young daughter now has a few white hairs which is shocking--it must be genetic! Or maybe it's because she serves as a surrogate Mother in her teaching job with children. When you're taking care of children of any age, there are scary moments when something is going down which takes your breath away and immediately a white hair will appear. Like magic.

When you become a Mother, you put someone else's welfare before your own.

You compromise.

You surrender.

You love deeper than you ever thought possible.

You sacrifice.

You try not to worry.

You plan ahead.

And you're never ever the same.

And I'm grateful and blessed to be a Mother!

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Friday, May 09, 2008


Oh Lord, Give Me a Decent Movie!

So we went to the movies again recently to see "Made of Honor", and I was totally dismayed with this formulaic movie. I can't say anything good about it. I see this movie advertised on tv as the "Top Romantic Comedy", and I wonder why? How?!

Are we to believe that a womanizer SUDDENLY falls in love with his best (girl) friend? Are we to believe that because she's fallen in love with a Scottish hunk that he's now awoken to how much he has always loved her? A serial marrying father arguing for prenups before his 6th wedding is so retarded. The gay jokes and marry cliches are so retro. Come on! I felt as if I landed on another planet with this movie, one that is so stuck on an old track.

The only thing I can figure as to why this movie might be doing good box office is that people desire to escape the doom and gloom of the bad news of the economy and world events.

People must be desperate for fantasy.

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Wednesday, May 07, 2008


On Hangovers

It doesn't take much for me to acquire a hangover because I'm a very light drinker (if I drink at all), and so when I have ONLY one tequila shooter and one margarita as I did on the night of Cinco de May, I paid for it dearly yesterday!

The drinking of the night before made me drag around the whole day, and then last night I had a strange, long, and complicated dream which could be summed up something like this:

What we call life is really death, but we don't think it is because since we were babies, we were told (programmed) by our parents and the world that we are LIVING. And when people pass out of our world, we are told they died. Instead they were born into the world of the living--a much more expansive, unlimited world.

In the dream I was able to visit both worlds, and I could even take a child to the other world.

So I awoke contemplating this provocative concept which is probably a 'religion' somewhere on this planet of religions.

What if it were true? Would I live my life differently in this dreamworld known as "life"? Would you? Even contemplating this concept is probably considered 'heresy' somewhere. Oh well.

I'll just blame it on the tequila.

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Friday, May 02, 2008


We're So Very Back!

After recuperating from a cold I acquired on the last leg of our long journey home to Maui and playing the game of 'catch-up', I'm ready to blog again! It has taken me awhile to find the time and energy to do so. I think one of the reasons is that the Maui energy is very, very different from the East Coast and Caribbean energy, and thus it takes a while to acclimate again to Maui's energies.

It was rejuvenating to take a long blog break and let my mind rest. After becoming an obsessive blogger, my mind was always churning with ideas, thoughts, feelings, and stories to blog. I was wearing out a perfectly good mind!

The very best part of the Caribbean cruise for me was to sit on the deck outside our suite on our cruise ship at night and commune with the elements of wind, water, and starlight. I never thought about blogging or email, and my mind and spirit were soothed and healed by Nature.

Arriving at the cruise ship was an adventure in itself which I blogged about on another of my blogs, Moonlight Becomes Me.

I also posted a photo of a stingray on Wailea Daily Photo today. The stingray excursion was also one of the highlights of our cruise, and I took tons of photos as well as having the opportunity to kiss a sting ray and receive a sting ray back massage. Ooh la la!

Besides meeting-up with sting rays, we interacted with dolphins, exotic birds, and lots of weird people... and managed to stay away from the dreaded expanded waist line. Instead of ten pounds most individuals normally gain on a cruise, we only put on four pounds each due to our daily discipline of working out at the gym on board and cutting-back on the ABUNDANT food offerings! I lost my four pounds the first week and then five more.

Both of us prefer to eat lighter than we did on our vacation. It feels better and healthier to simply have a small salad for an early dinner rather than dine at 8:30 PM with many courses of food brought to our table!! We left many courses uneaten, but as we did so, I had to wonder what cruise ships do with all the left-over food? Where does it go?

Now please excuse the following piece of housekeeping, but MyBlogLog has a new rule I see where I have to add the following piece of code to authenticate this blog.

Undergoing MyBlogLog Verification

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